jesse

I'm not sure words can fully explain the value I've received from the offerings of Lana and Ivan Rados.
I am a 23-year recovered alcoholic. I've spent many of those years doing 12 step work, helping others, and I've done a lot of healing. I've seen 4 therapists over the last 15 years, so I've likely spent 30k or so on therapy. Yet I was still looking for solutions to my problems.

While I have a rich family life and I function generally well in life, I was also medicating general anxiety with food, entertainment, nicotine, sex etc. As well, my wife and I have been together for 16 years.  While we have a lot of good things going, there were issues in our marriage that just wouldn't budge. (A lot of the above mentioned therapy was couple's counselling.) We were considering parting ways. 

I was afraid to start working with Lana and Ivan. I felt extremely vulnerable coming to them and putting my marriage in their hands. I was worried they might not like me, they'd take a side, or their influence would end my marriage and break up my family. I was worried somehow I'd not be enough or I would be judged unfairly.

I took the leap anyways and am so happy I did! I have experienced more healing in the last few years since meeting and working with both Lana and Ivan than in the previous decade or more. I have experienced one on one therapy with Lana in her counseling practice. My wife and I have recieved couples therapy. I experienced a private medicine ceremony with Ivan and Lana, we have had private couples ceremonies, we have been to the wilderness retreat together, a one day MWM ceremony and I have been to Ivan's men’s retreat.

I'm happy to report that my fears were unfounded. I was not vilified.  Nor was my wife. In Lana's private practice we both felt heard and validated.  I really felt a sense of fairness and unconditional love in Lana. She masterfully guided us back to eachother in a delicate, subtle and gentle way. Together we identified where each of us could improve. She challenged us to heal where we each needed to heal ourselves. A light was shone on the areas in myself that required my own love. Wounds were discovered that needed expressing.

Ivan is a gentle, kind, funny, childlike, wise and beautiful man. He is a powerful healer. He has been like a father and brother to me by reflecting to me my strength and encouraging my growth. He has shown me an alternate view of what it is to be a real man in this world. 

I can see in retrospect that my soul called me to work with these two beautiful people. They guided us in our own healing. As the direct result of the work we did under their guidance we have had decidedly less conflict and much more love, friendship, camaraderie and freedom in our marriage as well as a lot less anxiety, frustration, conflict and sadness brought about by our previously unhealed hearts. Turns out it was never about my partner, but only about my fears based on a distorted vision of myself. Both Lana and Ivan allowed me to see my truth, and realize my infinite worth. 

Personally I have never felt more compassion and love for myself or others in my entire life. I have found a deeper, lasting happiness. I have found tools I can use to reconnect to myself. I feel I have a new direction for my life. Through Intronaut's beautiful ceremonies I have found a community of friends who are on this same path of healing.

Lana and Ivan have the most loving and caring way of teaching. The over-arching message I've received from my journeys with Lana and Ivan and their beautiful team would be something like this:  "Look within. There is nothing wrong with you. There never was.  You are beautiful. You are Divine. You are not only worthy of love, but you are love itself.  You can finally let go of your fear." With this message, change of thinking or spiritual awakening my life circumstances haven't necessarily transformed, but I now move through them with more grace. I see where I have been resisting life and can now let it flow with more ease. I don't have to defend my insecurities, or react instinctively anymore. I feel a lot more emotional freedom. I feel I have choices. I feel empowered. 

I'm so proud to know these beautiful healers and am honoured to recommend them.  Their light shone the path to my own as I'm sure it will yours.

Love and light

-Jesse