Sonya

I don't know how this works. But the difference I feel in my entire being is just unbelievable. I never thought I'd feel this healthy, light , and free, and genuinely excited about living life. It's like all the pain was flushed out from my body. I feel so light, like I got a new body and a new chance at life.

After 4 forest medicine journeys with Ivan and Lana, I've noticed these huge changes:

- I no longer have a fear of men

- I no longer fear restaurants. I know this sounds crazy to say but based on my past, working or even going to a restaurant was deeply triggering. Not anymore. That just.. fell away.

- I feel so beautiful. I'm convinced that I've always had a big, beautiful, powerful soul, and no one can ever take that away from me.

- I feel so full of light.

- I feel better even than I did at 17. I remember bearing much of my family's pain, even then. Like all the pain was just flushed out.

- I feel brand new, not depressed, and so content.

If it for Lana, Ivan, and my own effort and will, I wouldn't be alive today. Just thinking back even to a year and a half ago, how much pain I was in. You all saved a life and I will continue shining until I die at a natural old age.

I love myself, and my life. And I'm full of joy.

So, to:

- no longer feel suicidal

- no longer feel depressed

- no longer have a debilitating fear of men

- Beat alcohol addiction

.... that's nothing short of a miracle. I'm still in disbelief. I dont know how this all works. But my God, am I grateful that it does.

Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Sonya.